Light, Faith and Spirit

They say I am a being of Light and Faith and Spirit. And if I take what they say as true, then what I am going through right now is not becoming someone new, but remembering who I am.

Many people from the past have reconnected with me over the last few days and expressed to me the impact I had on them and the way they see me as a person. And it is the same reflection that I am striving now to embody. And the same person I thought I always was. Yet, why do I feel that now that I am striving to live that life more actively, it is causing such conflict?

Why do I feel like the more I walk in the light, the more angry you become? If this is the same person I have always been, then why do I seem to offend you so now? I am returning to the same person now that you fell in love with once upon a time. How is it that what once drew you to me, now pushes you away?

And why have I chosen a love who thinks that matters of the Spirit are for fools? What did I hope to gain by such a masochistic choice? And when will the questions cease and be replaced by the everlasting silence of knowing my Truth?

I know the Truth of who I am. I have stated it quite clearly for all to hear. What I do not understand is how or if we are to make this work given who we are and who we are each choosing to be. All I can say is this...

I am going to live a spirited life filled with faith and light. I am not going to dwell in the darkness. I am going to share my light with the world. And I am going to put myself and my connection to source and spirit first. That is who I am. That is my path.

You can love me or leave me. But know, that is your choice. If I shine too brightly, I understand. But the decision to run from my light out of fear or judgement is yours. I do not ask you to go. I only say clearly that I am taking the high road. Whatever path you choose, I will love you nonetheless.