Day 7 and Day 8

So whether you may notice or not, I did not write this yesterday. At one point, I sat down with the intention to do so and really felt so high strung and short tempered that I couldn't sit still with that intention for more than a moment. So I found a friend, went for a walk and returned to peace.

But let's go back, back to the day before. I don't really want to miss a moment. It is important to me that I stay committed and follow through and create new habits that will slowly change my world. It's funny how difficult it can be to go back two full days. The recollections are not as clear and any key insights that may have occurred have just as easily slipped back into the recesses of my mind.

I can tell you I got plenty of reading done, far more than a mere 10 minutes, while my husband was in surgery. I am definitely very intrigued by some of the concepts Caroline Myss presents, particularly regarding personal power and how we so often give ours away. She calls us to begin to identify the things in our lives that cause us to lose power, whether they be actions, objects, people, or circumstances. She delves into the idea of cellular memory and how each thought and emotion we have in our entire lifetime is stored in the cells and tissues of our bodies. Then using the same concept that is a fundamental in Chinese medicine, we realize that every organ is linked with certain emotions. So whenever those stored thoughts and feelings are triggered, they can have a physical reaction in those corresponding organs and areas of our body. It is definitely fascinating to begin to exlore in depth what I've already known on a basic level for many years- the link between body, mind and spirit. I look forward to my daily read with her.

Shy and I had another great walk. I can say that I am infinitely grateful for the autumn weather that has finally found its way to the valley. Walk and talk and feel my energy lift. When I feel as if the energy is based in anything less than light, I shift my focus to my heart chakra and instantly feel its effect as light fills my body. I do this as I sit here now. Greg Bradden presents a lot of information about the studies that have been done proving that the electromagnetic field emanating from our hearts is exponentially greater than that of any other area in our body. They've studied the brain waves of healers when they are connected with their heart centers and the corresponding effects that is created in the brain waves of the receipients of their healing energies. And how when givent he opportunity, our bodies typically will aling themselves with the most loving vibration. Our heart is our greatest key to manifestation. It is the physical center of out body that unites heaven and earth, body and spirit. And it is the key.

It was definitely difficult to fit in my meditation on this day. By the time I had a few moments to do so, I headed upstairs and slipped into a bath to let some of the physical tension melt away. My intention was to meditate and I think instead I slipped into sleep. Perhaps it was a meditative state after all. But certainly not one with intention. So upon returning to myself I settled down in front of my altar even though I only had a couple of minutes to do so. I focused on my heart and sending out loving positive vibrations. And I knew that despite the challenges of the day, I carved out a few moments dedicated to my body, mind and spirit.

Given the difficulties that I had taking the time to write this entry yesterday, I sit here now, getting it done. Again, it's about the habit. In my Reiki I & II class last year, my teacher Rev. John Schultz gave the analogy of how his spiritual practice- reiki, prayer, meditation- is akin to brushing his teeth. And how he does it each and every day. Some days, that's all he does is apply some toothpaste and brush. And then somedays he brushes and flosses and rinses and brushes again and really gets in there with focus and passion. And that's what this is all about. This is about creating new habits of doing something to improve each area of my being each and every day, even on the days when the passion isn't there.

The weekly routine that I was getting accustomed to has definitely been thrown off this week, between James's surgery and physical therapy and putting forth my best nurturer and striving to keep three children at bay so dad can have a somewhat peaceful recuperative environment. A friend reminded me yesterday how change is the only constant. Regardless of that and the often incosistent and fluctuating nature of life, there are still certain things that we do every day- like take a shower, change our clothes and brush our teeth. Having a practice of self improvement, washing your spirit, mind and physical energy field, is the equivalent of these activities.

So I sat down to meditate yesterday. And found myself again slipping into sleep, but not before I dedicated a few minutes of focused meditation. Again working on two things- trying to hear any messages that my body has for me and opening my heart chakra and pouring forth that immense light. I almost always leave my meditation feeling high. Yesterday I happened to leave feeling both high and sleepy so I closed my eyes and let consciousness drift away in another regard.

At the beginning of this post, I mentioned that I walked with a friend. It was obvious to me that my energy was not where I wanted it to be- not in a happy or productive state. So I made certain to change it. I met with my friend at the park and we walked and talked for nearly 2 hours. It certainly wasn't a power walk and I doubt that our heart rates were ever elevated. But out minds and spirits and physical vibrations certainly were... or at least mine was. And I returned home feeling like a whole new person. Thank you Carmen for being there when my world needed a shift.

Then once again I found myself at the end of the day after the kids were in bed and Shy was bathed having taken no time for a mental activity. Knowing that if I sat down to read I would be watching the clock waiting for ten minutes to pass, I picked up a journal and wrote a piece of free flow spirited poetry. I may take the time to enter it later.

And now, as my little princess descends the stairs ready for my attention, I come to the end of two days worth of entries just in time. Ready to move through my day with the best of intentions. May you find a bit of magic in your day today As I will surely find a bit in mine.

~Namaste